Tuesday, January 02, 2007
2007
People say it is the end of 2006. Sad isn't it? For me, the need to go to school has ended. Looking back it seems that school isn't such an bad experience after all. Since the beginning of education, I have always thought education is the most important thing in this life of mine. Therefore, I placed a serious deal on books and such. The irony is that studies isn't my forte at all. I can still remember the days where I fail some subject and afraid to face my parents with the results.
Perhaps I didn't see life too importantly at that time. That's how i lived my life for 16 years. Pathetic isn't it? Life was so empty with absolutly no meaning at all. I didn't put in much effort to things I do. I escaped from whatever responsibility I have to take. Probably I felt ashamed to face myself at that time. Therefore, I never seem to like to take a photo or even dress myself up properly. Doesn't it seems that I am just a kid?
Fate seems to play a cruel joke on me. That emptyness created much now becomes a disadvantage to me. Most people have learnt those 'common knowledge' in secondary school days or even earlier. Haha. I have always been envious of those people. Their abitily to think for themselves during their early days are really amazing. Somethings i wished i that kind of ability to be mature since young.
Friendship
Courage
Love
Haha. If I have been more aware of what I've been doing since young, I would probably succeeded in those. 2 years. I have only been given 2 years to put everything right. To me, it seems unfair and short. Schooling has never been more enjoyable. Suddenly, I started to put effort into the things I do. Slowly, my studies start to improve. My fittness started to get better. My social group started to expand. My smile was just being warmed up. I started organising gathering to catch up with one another. Just when I put everything into place. Just when I started being myself. 2 years have past. Everything happened so fast. If only time could slow down and or even stop. That would be nice.
Can I be selfish for once? This is what i asked myself before the 'A' level preminary examination. If you guys are lost at this point of time, don't worry. It isn't complicated.
Junior Collage life is great! No no. It isn't for nerds nor it is for smart people. It comprises of many people from different aspects of life. There are those that are super rich and those that are just finacially average families like me. It's just another normal place where you play and have fun while studying at the same time. It is the period of time to be truely alive. That's why I started to live my life better during the span of 2 years. I really felt happy
'When I placed my hand on my chest feeling 'ta dub ta dub', I realised it great to be alive.' - adapted from 1 Litre of tears.
Although I can't say I am living life to the fullest, I will try my best. Since I know time never go backward, therefore I will live tomorrow in a more optimistic fashion. Instead of feeling pity towards yourself for those things you didn't do, why not try to do it now? I am 18 years old. I'm still young. I'm glad. Haha.
Well, there goes 2006. 2007 comes another challege. So how do I live my life from here onwards. Even though I never get any correct answer, at least I know I have tried.
2007.
What are those things that awaits me? Can I succeed in those things? What is my aim in life then? When will these questions be answered? It seems that I have stepped into another troublesome year. Haha.
--------------------To those having the patience to read the above-------------------
Firstly, I would like to thank the following people for making life a little more pleasant for me.
-Dad, Mom, Brother - for enduring my antisocialness for 16 years and food and love
-Wenwei, Yingsheng, Kelvin, Yongqing, Alaric, Yokeyong - for the fun
-Joan, Liling, XueJing, JingWen - for teaching me how to smile
-Champ, Chenleong, Karwei, Junnah, Jerry, Joe, Huiting, Melvin, AlexTeng, Raymond, Tehhan - for the laughter
-Amelia, Yenling, Yiling, Shichie, Chester, Leqi, Sebestian, Marcus, Sylvester - for staying together
-Serena, Zarifa - for the exciting time i had in floorball
-Caiting, Grace, Shannon, Raymond, Marcus, Xingling, XiaoJing - for my absense in band
Thank you the above for being my friend. In the new year, I promised to become a better friend to help, to joke and to cry with. Even if the sky sets us apart. You guys will forever be my friends and family. A huge thank you.
New year resolution? Hmm.
To find the path I intend to walk in life and to help find others find theirs too.
To laugh as much as i can.
To be a better person.
To be myself.
Well. That sums everything for this year 2006.
So now for 2007.
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